across oceans and over skies.

my fren's makin' me envious.
i wanna go on a trip with my baby!!!!
she went to bintan for a night.
and i'm so blardy jealous.
i wish baby cld lyk steal the passport or sth.
or i put him in my bag and carry him across to bintan.
fuck la.
i hate it tt he cant go anywhere outta sg la.
sighs.
i'll cry if he cant go away after we graduate.
i wanna go somewhere further than msia.
hopefully koh samui or sth.
redang is good too.
though it's msia.
in fact anywhere outta sg is good enuff la.
bintan batam bali tioman phuket langkawi.
pls tell me which of them is NOT affected by the tsunami.
mayb we wld end up at rasa sentosa la huh.
with a bbq pit.
facing the south china sea.
wells.
sighs.
even on the top of my hate list.
cruise.
is better than nothing.
rahhhhhhhhhhhhhhs.
speaking of tt fatty.
he's doing god-noes-wat at god-noes-whose plc.
yayyyyyyy.
i'll be 100bucks richer tmr.
yayyyyyyy.
and i'll be shopping for baby's presents.
yayyyyyyy.
alone.
i'm in a wierd mood.
my mum just told me she got "molested" on the bus.
and i laughed my ass off.
so did she la.
i mean lyk.
ok.
she's 56 and greying.
it's quite funny la.
she almost slapped tt ti koh.
wah.
fucking funny.
i cant stop laughing.
mum's cute stms la.
had xu liu shan with worm AGAIN just now.
god.
it's fucking expensive la.
and we're indulging in it lyk it's free.
but watever la.
when girls go out tgt.
they shld splurge.
they either splurge on themselves.
or on they beloved boyfriends.
when boys go out.
they splurge on themselves.
and themselves.
tough life ladies.

erghhhhhh.
i really dun lyk to wake up so early in the morning.
especially on a saturday.
coz there'll be NOTHING to do.
no tv to watch.
no one to talk to.
coz baby's at soccer.
and nothing to eat at home!!!!
breakfast is only served on sunday.
tt's when mummy goes to the market
and she gets me the same thing every week.
haha.
but it's all thanx to her tt i'm sitting here wide awake now.
she HAS TO bang on the door at 11 and ask me wat bus goes to kent ridge.
god.
and she goes lyk..."shi hao huh?"
she noes!
ok nvm abt tt.
last night at rouge was quite blah.
as usual the booze flowed lyk there wasnt a tmr.
the birthday boy of the night was down.
drunkshit.
anyway baby was quite down eventually.
he wasnt all tt alrite when he sent me back.
but he insisted to go take a cab alone while i stay at home.
sighs.
stubborn boy.
now i have a HUGE problem on hand.
vday is coming and baby doesnt wanna bring me out.
his birthday is coming and i have NO idea wat to get him.
somebody save me.
the worst thing is.
we have a 30% assignment to hand up on monday.
and we haven even chosen a topic.
great huh?

ergh.
i spend the last 10hrs slping.
and before slping i spent abt 17hrs gambling NONstop.
at damien's place.
mj blackjack.
cost me abt 50bucks.
haha.
and it's been almost 24hrs since i had my last meal.
feel lyk i'm gonna die quite soon.
gonna head downtown for dinner in abt 2hrs.
i hope i stay alive till then.
awwww.
havent felt so shitty for a long time.
the sheer exhaustion.
goddddd.
i shld go dig ard for some cny tidbits to munch on.
MUN!!!!!
wat time are u comin' back tmr?????????
dennis doesnt want me tmr.
call when u're back!!!!!

oh yay.
happy cny to the world!!!
as usual it's BORING.
munmun!!!!!!!!!!
come back!!!!!!!
baby's gambling or sth right now.
amazing race is getting real exciting.
and i still hate rebecca and adam.
they suck.
and i hope they dont win.
ah wells.
angbaos are going good.
still a few more to come and i hope they all add up well.
-grinz-
i wonder wat i'll do tmr.
watch vcds the entire day mayb.
-shrugs-
at least there are plans for friday.
alrites.
back to t.a.r.

had a fantastic day yesterday.
met up with angel to go shopping.
but she's quite poor thing la.
i made her go everywhere and i only bot a top and a pair of ear rings.
hees.
but eventually the duo who went shopping ended up with 5 pple eating dessert at xu liu shan.
wells.
long long story.
but yesterday was fun fun FUN.
bumped into everyone i hardly see.
and as usual la.
we spent more time talking than anything else.
so worm came down after her sch.
but it wasnt too long b4 we decided to head home.
i barely slpt for an hr tt day.
shagged out to the max.
and now.
baby is slping on MY bed.
on OUR anniversary.
refusing to wake up for lunch with ME.
gonna slap him right now.

happy 21st mth anniversary darling.
nvr stop loving me.

life isnt too good with u cant slp at 315 in the morning.
and u've gotta be in sch by 8 in the morning.
and there's a test at 1 in the afternoon.
followed by a shopping and bitching session at 4.
and.
i feel a cold bug creeping up on me.
not good at all.
cny's ard the corner.
i cant afford to fall sick and miss out on the measly angbaos my so called "aunties" will give out.
my headaches are getting worst.
i cant slp all the time.
think i'll just wait till the sunrises and go to sch.
i'm glad i'm meeting angel to go shopping tmr.
tt means tt i wont get kp-ed by baby if i go into the 873146789149th shoe shop and not buy anything.
and i'll just buy sth he hates and piss the shit outta him.
hahaha.
lyk a translucent top with lace.
muahaha.
he'll die trust me.
but so will i la.
i'm super stressed out with life.
i need a well deserved break.
but i doubt it'll come.
until april.
sighs.
and this is wat one does when she cant slp.

I AM : dying to fall aslp.but apparently i'm super awake.
I WANT : to go slp.with my baby by my side.
I HAVE : a really bad headache.
I WISH : i had a full week to slack.
I HATE : this moment.big time.
I MISS : having a good slp and fantastic dreams.
I FEAR : flying insects.
I HEAR : the buzzing of my fan.
I WONDER : wat to get my baby for his birthday.
I REGRET : nothing.i dun believe in regrets.
I LOVE: my baby my baby my baby my baby.and of coz my girlies too.
I'M ALWAYS: bitchy.
I DANCE: lyk a wooden plank.
I SING: when i feel irritating.
I CRY: all the time.
I AM NOT ALWAYS: whiny.just most of the time.
I LOST: the motivation to study.
I'M CONFUSE: abt the path i shld take in life.
I NEED: to slp!
I SHOULD: be hugged to slp daily.haha.
Yes or No
u keep a diary: yes and no.not really a diary.
u like to cook: yepz.but not the washing up part.
u hav a secret u hav not shared with anyone: nope.i shared my deepest secret with my baby recently.
u believe in love: i do.very much so.
Wan to get married: yeah.in a bustier wedding gown with swaroski crystals.yadahyadah.
Think u're a health freak: i love pig's trotters.chocolate fondue.curry chicken.ciggerates.sure.wat do u think?
Get along with ur parents: sometimes.
Favourite NUMBER(S): 8.88.
COLORS: black.white.dirtypink.(this is so recent)
MONTHS: aug.feb.
FOOD: nth frm macs.
SEASON: summerrrrrrr.
Preferences
CUDDLE OR MAKE OUT: cuddles will lead to making out.or vice versa.
CHOCOLATE MILK OR VANILLA: it's either chocolate or plain.not such thing as vanilla man.
SUSHI OR FISH FILLET: sushi.
THE BEACH OR THE MALL: used to be the beach.since i decided to be a fair lady.it shall be the mall.
DAY OR NIGHT: night.that's when making out is nice.hehz.
CHRISTMAS OR CHINESE NEW YEAR/HARIRAYA?: deepavali.
GIFT OR $$: gift.frm the heart.
LETTER OR E-MAIL: letter.
THE PIANO OR THE GUITAR: neither la.recorder.(this is getting irritating)
NIKE OR ADIDAS: adidas.
REEBOK OR CONVERSE: yucks.
ANIMALS OR PLANTS: plants.they dun make noise.
PHONE OR PERSON: wahlau.wat phone or person?how to compare sial.it's lyk comparing underwear and tv.
HOME OR OUTSIDE: depending la.wahlau eh.(i'm seriously getting pissed)
HOT OR COLD: hot.cold makes me feel lyk shit.
HELPED SOMEONE? er.hmmmmmz.yeah i guess.oh yeah.i'm frm rotaract hor.
BOUGHT SOMETHING? when?since i was born?plenty.today?no.
GOTTEN SICK? getting.
GONE TO THE MOVIES? recently?no.
GONE OUT FOR DINNER? yeah.reunioned.
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER? yeah.for a job appl.
TALKED TO AN EX? yes laaaaaaa.
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL? we were made to in crescent.
HAD A SERIOUS TALK? yepz.
HUGGED SOMEONE? no.i eat my bf everytime he comes near.
PLAYED ANY GAMES ONLINE? abt 7868734928750.

jeanneh is beri clebber.
according to worm at least.
anyway.
i tot i had enuff of that bitchy looking thing on my blog.
so now.
it's back to good ol' jeannie style blog.
reunion dinnered with sister broinlaw niece and nephew.
well.
we're prolly strangers to the kids la.
we see each other lyk once a year.
at least we noe tt my sister is doing well.
and the niece is cute.
i'll upload her pic soon.
shopped with baby today.
again.
and still bot nothing.
plain sick man.
there's nth i fancy which is good to the wallet.
watever i see i lyk is 3digits.
erghs.
and i refuse to spend a bomb on clothes for gym or pilates.
alrite.
on the agenda tmr.
top(s).
a bag (hopefully).
and my baby's present.
i hope i get a least one of the 3 things man.
and ohhhhh.
worm and i are gonna buy toto tmr.
it's 11 million for the top prize man.
gonna try my ass luck.
hahaha.
if i win 11 million.
i'm gonna bring all my girlies on a holiday to maldives.
and on a shopping spree in paris.
and i'll buy baby a red mazda rx8 to drive me ard.
buy my daddy a 7series beemer.
and i think i'll be left with 2cents to spend.
hahaha.
we doesnt love to day dream?
time for me to slp now.

we finally had a good talk.
although it wasnt a 'pouring hearts out' thing.
it was close.
at least we noe each other's point towards some stuff.
at least i noe tt i'm more or less at the top of ur priority list.
i'm glad tt we talked.
i wish we cld do tt more often.
mayb u think tt we see each other so much tt there isnt a point.
but there are just somethings i dun tell u.
coz i dun think there was ever a right time for it.
there are somethings we both did tt we'll nvr forget.
but i learnt to forgive.
and i believe u did too.
wat we wont forget is a lesson for us both.
and tt's wat makes us hold onto each other.
there were some things i nvr knew abt ur life.
and it's amazing how much i noe in the 2hrs compare to the almost 21mths we've been tgt.
it's all abt the communication darling.
i hope u understand tt.