across oceans and over skies.

it's been a big rush last wed till now.
a week of training passed.
and now i wear the freakin' wayang makeup for training every day.
so anyway
i can say tt i havent had a decent slp since wed.
let me recap.
i really cant rem watever i've mentioned this.
and i'm too lazy to go read my own blog.
got home damn late on wed night.
talk to the boy till damn late.
and had to wake up damn early.
1st crappy slp.
stayed over at baby's place on thursday night.
slpt damn late and was damn depressed.
woke up at 6.
2nd crappy slp.
cldnt slp on friday night coz my baby's in camp.
and by 8 in the morning i was woken up by hacking of walls tt belong to me.
cldnt slp no more.
3rd crappy slp.
sat night rubbish coz there wasnt a shower to use.
slpt without showering
and had to wake up by 9 on sunday morning to go to granma's.
4th crappy slp.
sunday night was at granma's.
too worried abt waking up at the right time on monday.
cldnt slp.
woke up at 6+.
5th crappy slp.
monday night was spent with some excolleagues dinnering at seletar air base.
got home at 10+ to bring stuff over to my granma's.
and finally slpt at 1.
had to wake up damn early again.
6th crappy slp.
spent the entire night shopping for makeup and necessities.
and talking to baby and painting my nails and doing my laundry.
slpt damn late and had to wake up damn early to do my makeup.
7th crappy slp.

amazing how i chocked up so many crappy nights.
tonight wld be better i hope.
i'm just too freakin' tired to care abt the pillow and the mattress.
i just wanna ko.
and the boy hasnt confirmed tt he can come out tmr.
so fuck shit once again.
and thank god tmr is thursday.
i wanna go over to baby's place.
and slp my eyeballs out.
at least it's a familiar and comfortable place.
let's cross our fingers tt he'd get to come out.

and ooo.
i've got a short bob hairstyle now.
amazing how people get cloned.
i'm damn lor soh.
but i've only got this blog as an outlet.
i obviously dont wanna get grumpy with my lovely friends.
so yeah.
i'm done whining for now.
and i'm off to bed.

i love u all.

i have to get up at 6 tmr.
and i have a hundred and one reasons why i cant slp.

the mattress is too thin.
the bolster is too hard.
the pillow is too low.
the clock is too noisy.
my nose is running like mad.
the noises are too unfamiliar.
the fan is blowing in all the wrong directions.
and

i miss my boyfriend.

it sucks balls to live in an unfamiliar place.
god knows how the hell did i manage to adapt to staying at the boy's place.
but yeah.
not like my granma's is a hellhole or anything.
it's just weird.
blah.
i hope and pray and watever
that he can come out on thursday.
doesnt matter if he has to go back on friday.
but i just wanna see him.
it sucks balls not to be able to see him laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
fuckshit man.
fuck this shit.
my stomach feels funny.
my back aches.
and my nose is running.
symptoms of death.

oh fuckshit boy.