across oceans and over skies.

saw vern today.
she din look as bad as i tot she wld.
which means she's getting better.
she din puke out her medicine.
and tt's really good.
saw her family there.
all of them looked worried.
some uncle of hers printed a whole ring binder of stuff abt her illness i think.
and the brother brought it along to read when he had dinner.
really touches me.
i'd nvr have a brother who'd do tt for me.
i saw queenie's love for her.
she tried to lighten things up by talking nonsense.
but when i looked into her eyes
they were a picture of unrest.
vern dearie.
i hope u lyk the bloomers i got u.
they smell real nice when they bloom.
i hope u'll be home by the time they all bloom.
-hugs-

went for my first formal interview today.
and the lady made it quite clear tt i'm a very unlikely candidate for the job.
coz she thinks it's too challenging for me.
i believe she's right.
i dun think i can handle 100k of sales within 3-4 mths.
all by myself.
was a good experience.
gave me blisters when i walked frm the building to take a bus.
and i was perspiring lyk crazy.
stay at the hospital for abt 6hrs.
and i finally got my blisterfied feet home.
spent a bomb this mth.
time to get a financial planner.

life's unfair.
nobody's life can ever ever be compared to another.
we're god's lil experiment.
sometimes he gives a lil bit too much wealth.
sometimes too lil.
sometimes he takes away an arm.
sometimes he gives three.
sometimes he gives a happy family.
and makes life really tough.
we take for granted the ten fingers we have.
the colours we can see.
the prawn mee we can taste.
only when we're thrown into a sea of nothing-ness.
den we see the importance of things all.
i can consider myself lucky.
i'm not in any extreme difficulty nor extreme prosperity.
i'm happy with the way things are.
with my mum calling every night to bug me home.
or check the toto online.
my baby pissing me off every once in a while.
the project fucking up everytime.
the reports i have to rush.
and the pile of laundry i have to do.
be grateful for the way things are.
the situation cld be worst.

to dear vern.
girlie.
i hope u get well real soon.
life's nvr fair.
everyone gets shit in life.
urs is u being unwell.
u've got a long way ahead of u.
and pick up the pieces and get on with life ok?
u're the toughest girl i've met.
i believe u can make it thru anything.
esp with the fantastic pple ard u.
hugs and kisses.

the air smells lyk kim zua.
day in day out.
decided to on the aircon for the night.
sth which i hardly ever do.
makes me feel icky when i wake up.
i love it tt i'm a bitch.
alrite.
it's outta the point to pple out there.
it was a rather boring day.
the mudderfuckingretarded 8-10 teacher din come today.
so we slacked for 2hrs before heading for some workshop.
and later presented our really hilarious film.
esp the burning of the plane part.
funny shit.
yayyy.
i'm dragging mun out shopping with me.
she's my fashion merchandizer.
at least for awhile.
until i get wat i want.
it's nato's bday next wed.
and i realized i haven seen her for quite awhile.
miss her.
bringing up the incident when she fell at the bus stop n years ago
just cracks me up.
anyway.
my poor baby boy is doing his assignment now.
while i'm going to bed right after i'm done with this.
and ooooooooooooo.
i saw fat meow on the bus today.
to all her fans.
i'm sorry to say this.
but.
she was really rolling abt in the bus.
and looking at her reflection every 2 secs.
adjusting the tube which can fit 2 of my asses.
and her arm is the size of my calves.
i swear i'm not exaggerating.
mun can vouch for it.
hahaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
it was really amusing la.
she thinks she's the goddess of prettiness.
someone knock some fucking sense into her.

yESSSSSSSSSsssSSSSsssSSSSSssssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i'm finally done with the wretched report.
after another 5hrs of sitting here.
i feel lyk i'm gonna break into 2.
i dunnoe how desmond did his in 10hrs.
i think i took lyk 24hrs or sth.
well.
it's all gonna be so much easier later on.
expectly i skipped lecture today.
to come home and slp.
and halfway in my slp
baby called and said tt the lecturer is gonna do the prac in the afternoon.
when we supposely have no class.
and i decided not to go back to sch.
slp for 4hrs in my cozy bed with the aircon blasting.
fantastic.
it's time to go slp soon.
and mun.
pls get alllllllll ur work done so tt u can have teh with me.
smileeeeeeesssssssssssssssssssssss.

today.
is.
seriously.
draining.
slp at 4am doing my report.
woke up at 10+ to make my way to yew tee.
yeah.
wth right.
it's the first time in my life i've been there.
-yawnz-
went to vania's plc to film our wisp presentation.
took 4 hrs or so to film 4 mins on tape.
so not fun.
thing is.
i was doing my report everywhere i went.
on the train to yew tee.
in vania's plc.
on the cab to dinner with the relatives.
and i'm only lyk 60% done with it.
honey says it's ok if i dont finish my tmr.
it's quite impossible la.
i'm dead beat.
had dinner with mum and all.
by the time i got home it was alr 10 odd.
no way i'm gonna stay up another night.
i need the slp.
and i'm pretty sure i'm skipping lecture again tmr to slp at home.
cant take this shit man.
my room is so dirty even i cant take it anymore.
but i'm just too shagged to clean it up.
i somehow love and hate war shows.
black hawk down's on tv now.
though i've nvr watched it.
i saw the shooting scene and it's so scary.
but it's so real these war shows.
makes me wanna cry.
those blacks parading with their kill.
it's really scary.
and i decide to off the tv right NOW.

sorry for being sucha bitch.
life isnt being too nice.
i wished i cld make urs a lil nicer.
but it's isnt happening.
bear with me baby.
i love u.

i've been at my report for almost 3 hours straight.
including this afternoon and evening and yest.
it'd have been abt 6 hours.
and i'm still at the blardy intro.
which is undisputedly the toughest.
the whole load of citations means opening up 30 over windows at one go.
and jumping frm window to window to gather info.
doesnt help when my com decides to hang when the 31st window opens.
and i cant click on anything or press ctrlaltdel.
so i had to altf4 alllllllllllll the windows before it becomes sane again.
sighs.
not fun.
but it'll all be good after this first draft shit is done.
at least the final report wld be in the bag alr.
went shopping with mum today.
and while i was feeling guilty abt spending over 100bucks on a pair of pants and a coat.
there was a rather interesting phonecall.
and mum was over the moon.
mummy rocks.
for now at least.
we spent lyk 300bucks in chinatown.
tell me how is tt possible since i'm not an ah lian.
neither is she.
haha.
gotta alter those pants.
makes my thighs look huge.
pinstripes shld make me look slim.
ohhhhh.
i shld go to seed and get a shirt.
the 10% discount from baby's shirt shld help a lil.
anyhoooooos.
baby is having fun out there.
while meeeeeeeeeeeeee is doing the report.
and he tot his was tough.
tell me abt it man.
worm has a really ugly looking blog now.
awww.
my wrists hurt frm the constant typing and moving my hands.
and fags are 11bucks now!$#%$#^%&^(*($%^$%(*)((%^#$
knnccb!!!!!!!!!!!>?!?!!@>?
but wth.
i'm gonna get tt mp3 player soon.
next week or sth i hope.
den i'm gonna start saving up for my holiday.
the one in my fuckin' dreams.
i hate it when nobody gives a definite answer.
esp baby.
all thanx to his parents.
watever it is.
i'm going somewhere after i'm done with all these shit.
with or without company.