ok i was home the ENTIRE day today.
i finally watched a beautiful mind.
and omg.
i think i'm really robot.
it was damn sad but i didnt cry either.
it was damn sweet at the same time.
it's abt john who has schizo but is a genius at the same time
and his wife alicia.
he almost killed their baby coz he had a imaginary friend
watching the baby while he was busy closing windows.
he went thru painful treatment and while he got better
his sex life was in jeopardy.
so he stopped taking his medication and got into a load of shit
due to his hallicinations.
his shrink wanted to put him thru those treatments again
but because his wife loves him
she refuses to let him and instead
stood by him and helped him through life.
he eventually won a nobel prize.
ok somebody tell me if it's a true story.
and oh wells
i'm watching diana ser/lai on get real.
i love her hair.
and tt diamond on her finger.
loads of free time.
nth very much to do.
i'm becoming a stressed out freak.
there's a million things on my mind right now.
which totally suck.
i finished a book i borrowed on sunday.
totally need to keep myself occupied.
if not i'll freak out again.
i need sth tt'll make me calm.
booze?
nah.
gets me high and makes me talk nonsense.
drugs?
makes me wanna slp.
my baby?
at home.
busy.
rahs.
maybe i need to seek professional help.
finally changed the way my blog looks.
after having the previous layout for eons.
the next interview is changed to the 15th.
which gives me forever to worry abt it.
not good.
so in the meantime
there's nth much for me to do besides worrying and thinking abt it.
so while baby worked today
i went to the lib
then i bought my first pair of fake lashes
and i got home
watched friends for hrs and hrs.
napped.
painted my nails.
and redid my blog.
suddenly my life is reduced to nth besides waiting.
pooooooo.